I know I’ve written about this before, and that should be enough, but, this is really bumming me out. I must admit that even I am surprised about how upset I am about the death of Larry Hagman. I can’t believe he’s gone. This just frakkin sucks. You’d think I actually knew the man, or was related to him something. Ultimately, he was just some actor, who happened to play a TV character that I really enjoyed, so this shouldn’t be that big of a deal but, for some reason, it is. I mean, it kinda does feel like I’ve lost someone that I really knew, as crazy as that sounds. Like every couple of days he’ll pop into my head, and I get upset that he’s dead.

In the past month I’ve picked up a ton of magazines with articles about him. I’ve been going through Youtube, watching a bunch of clips about Dallas, and interviews with Hagman and the cast. This documentary was a pretty good one that I hadn’t seen before. I’ve rewatched some of the Dallas movies that I have on DVD. My brother, the original DALLAS fanatic, and I have had a bunch of conversations about the show & Larry Hagman since then. I’ve also been following some websites, like the Dallas Decoder blog, which has some great articles, interviews, and reviews. And the Ultimate Dallas website also has a lot of good info on the show, plus it has a forum. I tried to sign up to it once but there was some kind of error when I tried to post, so I gave up. But I can read what the other Dallas fans are talking about.

I also keep up to date via the Dallas Facebook Page, which used to be written as if the character of J.R. Ewing was updating it, but is now currently being updated by his son, John Ross. And they’ve released several new promos for the next season of the show, all of which prominently feature J.R. Ewing in action, and that just kinda makes it worse, because it looks so good! Hagman filmed 6 full new episodes before he died, and these will be my last chance to see him in action as J.R. Ewing. God, that sucks.

I just try to keep reminding myself that he was 81 years old, and had long fullfilling life, and died surrounded by his loved ones. But I still miss him. I just do. Dammit.